I have finally had a breakthrough in what I want to do with my life! I have been thinking and thinking recently about what I should major in, what I like, what I want out of my life. It has all been very confusing, and since I have been so focused on the nursing, and getting into nursing school, I havn't paid much attention at all to what I actually LIKE. I've just been putting up with all the science (which I don't like) to get into nursing school! Anyways, back to my breakthrough. Today I was watching 19 Kids and Counting (a truly fascinating show), and one of the girls, Jill, was studying to be a midwife. I became so jealous of her and realized how much I still want to be involved with pregnant women, and with birth.
I started doing some research online, and found information on being a Doula. They are active birth coaches, and work for midwives, and they still get paid (although not nearly as much as the midwife). I don't think that being a Doula alone will be enough money, but I have always been interested in massage. I want to go to massage therapy school, become a massage therapist, and incorporate being a Doula with being a massage therapist! Perhaps I could work as a massage therapist, and then be a Doula on the side, or something. I would really like to specialize in prenatal massage, I think that would be amazing!
After all of the confusion and wondering, it feels really good to sort of realize what it is that I really am interested in, and am drawn to. I have looked into massage therapy before, and pairing it with pregnant women feels right! I feel happy.